cracking heart

i've tried to not cry..
but still it doesn't work..
still the tears roll out..

two times i feel like this..
exactly the same as last year..to see the faces i don't know in the newspaper..
my heart's so sick..

when i can get my result?
i hate uncertainty..
i'm not afraid of tears..
i'm used to it..
but i hate myself when i'm crying..

pliz..
i still have a chance..
don't let me down..


he told me this:
" we should never be afraid of tears..They soften our hearts,wash our eyes and clear our vision"

being optimist...!!!!
bless me God..
i need Your miracle...
*amin*

GB all..