undescribeable feelings

hello..
what i told u yesterday is finally done..
it's all because of my stupidity..
really stupid n foolish..
to make everyone confuse n ask anyone i know..
hahaha..
luckily it works now..
ah..
4 days to his bday n still dunno whether can celebrate it with him or not..
friday i'll go to his house..to pray for him n his brother..
again..always nervous to see his parents yet exciting.. :P

what i want to tell u is now i'm thinking deeply bout his departure on 8th..

i felt this several times..
i think this time would getting better n i won't be so sad to see his leaving..
but it's impossible to let you know.
my heart's always cracking,sad,frightened n finally tears roll out..
please 4 give me..
this what i can't control at all..

only 1 week more then he'll go 4 several months AGAIN..

argh..so pathetic..
just skip it..
i'll be busy to finish the b'day card,packaging..
n wait 4 it's picture yah!

GB all..
miss you always