cracking heart

i've tried to not cry..
but still it doesn't work..
still the tears roll out..

two times i feel like this..
exactly the same as last year..to see the faces i don't know in the newspaper..
my heart's so sick..

when i can get my result?
i hate uncertainty..
i'm not afraid of tears..
i'm used to it..
but i hate myself when i'm crying..

pliz..
i still have a chance..
don't let me down..


he told me this:
" we should never be afraid of tears..They soften our hearts,wash our eyes and clear our vision"

being optimist...!!!!
bless me God..
i need Your miracle...
*amin*

GB all..

love people except annoying one

yups..
lg pengen banget ngomel2 deh...haeh..

smalem..hr minggu..
k sun..(>_<).. bukan karena senang k sun nya..tp karena ktmu teman2..yg plg ga bisa d rubah dr kami?haha..gosip...even co2 jg ngegosip.. smalem cuma 6org..they are: caryn:miss manja yet bandel yet fashionable..
tini: miss cheerful !
jess : miss active..
suhe: yg suka ngegosip jg..
joel :wah.the naughtiest..plus his new piercing..!ckckck..
n me...i dunno wat word to describe me..=)
we didn't go anywhere..
mostly stayed at foodcourt n chatting..
go around n around..caryn bought hair clip n i bought magazine..
uughhh...feel so nice can go to somewhere else besides working..
but also not complete without him..hehe..

aku uda lupa tggl brpa hari lg..tp mending ga usah itung deh..biar berlalu dengan cepatt...
hehehe...
bagian yg seneng2 uda lewat..
skrang yg nyebelin nih..

knp sih ada yg sewot banget?
you don't need to know who..ngejudge klo aku bela2in mo k spore krna ada pacar..
come on..aku ga munafik..itu salah satu nya emang..
tp kan aku juga liat better prospect n major yg aku mau..
aku jg ga gila lah...wktu dy lg blg itu..aku ga d rmh sih..
ergh!she doesn't understand me at all !
mksdnya apa sih?kok jadinya kek jatuhin aku d dpan mama ku sendri..hal itu bisa aku urus sendri..ga usa dy komentarin..mending dy baek2 aja blajarnya..
4 you who read this..
this is absolutely you don't need to care for..i know 'she' won't read this..
so yah..curhat2 sejenak..krn da alasan yg buat aku ga bisa apa2 dy blg gitu...krna ga tau mo curhat ke sapa jg..hahaha..

who cares rite?i don't care her n her..forget about her!

tp kyknya backstreet aku makin rawan..hahahha..but still enjoy it..
i still won't tell u,mom..n be patient,dear..
just wait..

fiuhhh...
sebenarnya ada beberapa foto..tp ga bisa d transfr..
tp bakalan ku transfer kok...hehehe..
but only pic of narcism me..hahahaha....

aduh.....makin ga sabar......
pengen ketemu...n touch n feel him of course...
figthing anyone!!
still not yet get my announcement...sigh..

GB

pathetic

hey...
there's no spirit today..
sigh...
the heat make me weaker...
sigh...
n tomorrow will face super loaded job..
i didn't do my job well...
why i'm so stupid?
haeh...
what can i say?
ooh..i miss him to much..
usually i miss him too..but today is different..
seems i really want to be spoil on him..
ok..i won't continue to write..
coz make me become more pathetic..
i don't wish to..

okay..enough!!
fighting!!!he'll finish all his final test...!!!

GB anyone....

heaven!

Hello,world..
I'd like to write bout monday..i think i'll become one of those who hates Monday..yeah..it's so tiring n lots of job..My sister felt it too,so we went to massage..Gosh..it's nice n i admire the massage therapist rite now..hahah..but we got our body is painful when we woke up?WE DUNNO WHY..

then,some people told me that those who study abroad such as NTU or NUS,when it comes to quiz or exam,they will be "owl"..I mean they'll sleep very late at nite..and it proved !
He's studying n i accompanied him until 2 a.m n in spore was 3 a.m. Pity on him..will be so tired..
But i'm happy coz i could feel he's struggling hard n i besides him..hehe..
didn't chat a lot but saw his face through webcam is enough..miss him..it's worth anyway..=)
fighting,dear..as u said,19 days to heaven now..hahaha..

Day 109 without him..ergghh!can't wait until 10th..he promises me..hehe..
gud luck everyone.....

GB...!

brighter?

uuh...tiring day..
i also dunno what i did today..haha..
daily activities of course n today make me confuse..

why people say that my skin is brighter now?
am i so black when i still in school??
my mom said my skin is always bright since i was young..hahaha..
but i'm happy..=)..
i also got 400g chocolate from my uncle..i know he hearts me..hahahah

i almost fainted by the weather here..
hot like hell !!
the weather is unpredictable again..really i got headache of it..

anyway..
thats all...
i miss him so much n much..

GB all..

dilemma..

i confuse all the time..

some people say " be Optimist ! "
another says " Think the worst.."

how??i really don't understand..
i'm afraid if i'm too optimist..the result will be something i don't expect for..

ok..i have failed one year ago..
and i really ready to fail again.. coz this time is already different..i had followed the exam while last year i were not eligible at all to follow the test..at least i've done my best,rite?

i think i got the conclusion..

be optimist but don't think too far..
deal, Mr. G ?
hehehe..

i need support !!!!!

cheers,everyone...!
GB

favourite line

ups..i felt very exhausted and sleepy these two days..
i don't know why..

and i don't have interesting things about days,lifes and me to post..
but let me share about my favourite sentences or quotes or line..^^

since he sent me beautiful words,i like to collect them and i tag it from movies,songs,books..
here they are..(juz some),and i think you must know these..

" when you can live forever, what do you live for ?"
yes,it's from twilight..since i watched the movie,now i'm officially twilight-edward cullen-bella
swan fans..(>_<)

" when you have everything,what would you possibly desire ?"
it's from akon's song..i like this song..make me move n knock my head down..hahahaha...

i cannot live forever as edward cullen does and i don't have everything,so i don't know the answer..anyone??

edward will be the most romantic actor in the movies i've ever watched..hahaha..anyone's heart will melt like i do by his every single words he said to bella??hahaha..

in my world?who's the most romantic one?hahhaha..you know who...
*laughing*

still..gud luck for us n everyone..cheers...!